Friday, October 31, 2014

My religious and philosophical development continues

What the soul is......... and America's position on it:

It's on the $1 bill.
The soul... my soul... is actually a Temple with an eyeball on top of it.

And my enemy... is FATE.
Fate is for stupid people; illiterate people. "That was my fate" [negative]
I remember seeing a picture of Aleister Crowley with a temple and eyeball on top of his head. I wonder if magick people have a hard time believing in it. After all: what about Soul T?

Of course, it doesn't make any sense to me; considering our true philosophy of international religion. Eating the fruits and playing the tune of multiple great churches.
I have to wonder if... maybe my religion and philosophy hasn't completed.
Maybe... the soul is only a temple sometimes, and other times it's different.
Maybe... the soul is a temple and an eyeball - that is the American soul, and what they want it to be.
America is "GIVING YOU THE SECRET" on the $1 bill: the soul is a temple with an eyeball on it.
America is "MANDATING A SOUL-TYPE" on the $1 bill: a temple with an eyeball on it.
I'm more likely to believe the 1st one.
-- [sentences taken from a different website]
Annuit Coeptis, with the accepted translation: 'Providence Favors Our Undertakings'
-The new American Republic, with their soul-philosophy, is benefited by Hell.
Novus Ordo Seculorum, with the accepted translation: 'A New Order of the Ages'
-The new race of people will favor government over church - because it's bigger.
It also has the obverse of the Seal, and that has the motto E Pluribus Unum, with the accepted translation: 'Out of Many, One' 
-Hundreds of humans together form one soul: and the result after a lifetime is that they form 1 human being. [hypo]
What I do know is that ."my soul" and "my temple" have been hacked and invaded... by American nationalist abomination. Abomination. Abomination.
Men who are 100% stupid, live and breathe in the army, and follow a different version of history than me.

I feel as if I am 100% dead. I feel as if... the Americans have stolen everything from me and profited very heavily.
Even right now, there is a police officer, and an American soldier - -inside of my head - -lying to me; modifying my memories. Changing my memories. Destroying my soul. Lying to me. Destroying my memories. Lying. Destroying my memories.
And the nationalism of the USA - their absolute lunatic nationalist patriotism - is an abomination, 5x an abomination, and they will never stop; they will never pay reperations; they will never stop lying; they will never stop destroying my memories.


I'm investigating my computer/email/cell phone censorship and blacklist.
1 point of good news:
I contacted hushmail customer support, and they sent a letter to me, and it went through. I felt that was 1 point of good luck. But I'm still 95% certain my identity is blocked on the internet and "real world."

Bill says that "Skype is actually a military-controlled network"

Just contacted the Seattle TIMES Newsroom and got a computer generated voice.
I heard a beep first, and then it went to a generic voice which said "Seattle Times Newsroom"
It felt just like talking to a Pentagon computer.
There's hope though that my cell phone is still free.

Thursday, October 30, 2014

Captchas are supernatural

My new habit, egged on by God --- is to play with Captchas. Try to prove how smart I am by altering the Captcha and writing different words in it.
After all - it's the opposite of what a normal person would do.
I feel like "Captcha is an enemy of my government."

But I did it 3-4 times, and here was what I got:
What does it mean?
Pagancrime is...... a bad word.  It has strong religious meaning to me.

My future [black]

My blocklist and my poverty....

-My soul left me, and went to heaven - and he's profiting very heavily by himself, surfing in heaven
-Every time I live aggressively on Earth, his power goes down, so he tries to make me "a dead person" so I just live and don't do anything
-I have a major block that says "I can't go up" and it has to do with "the wind" and "the android inside of me"
-Catholics, and Gods are in on it, and don't know what to do about me.

-I can still see the future a little bit - so I'm still sane and reasonable - but the underlying problem is right there. --- Rat.
-It's not so much an NSA blacklist - as a God -> blacklist. It's very hard on me.
-I am probably going to get back on support, and then I'm going to "be dead for a year" and then I'm going to go down again.

I'll do anything to
1) Not go to the hospital again
2) Not live in poverty
3) Not be homeless.

A come down; sad muzak

I have rat blood?
I have rat blood! :( ! :(
I have RAT BLOOD :( :( :(

I think it's like "denatured, bacteria blood."
I feel like a lazy, tired, pseudo-human. My high of getting home and doing lots of work has come down, and I feel once again that my mind is about normal.
I'm actually very, very upset.
I also feel the presence of another person in my mind; like "a marine corps" human, or something similar. I am very angry, and tired. I feel like I won't be able to finish my job. I feel like "my soul, my power" left me due to the sadness of my life, and I'm stuck here in this dead body with nothing. I'm very, very upset.
I feel like I could continue working for the next 30 days, and make lots of phone calls, and write lots of letters - and I still would fail - because I have rat

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Onions + Russian

Onions and religion:

People who don't eat onions! Yeah, that's me. They say we have souls; because of the onion inside of us; we can't eat it. But maybe it's only 1st generation souls.
My parents eat onions. What does that say....

I've never eaten onions. I even cough and sometimes throw up if I get them in my mouth.
I can eat sin, though. "Sour Cream and Onion chips," and  some "Onion Rings."


In other ideas: I've rediscovered Russian literature. Lenny and Stalin and Trot. 
"Our souls are made of 10,000 lights, and the lights come from the firefighters." And my soul rejects them, because of a major light triangle. I can't really figure it out... the hand. It's very frightening and scary, actually.

Game monopolies [Warcraft, League of Legends]

League of Legends - there's something really smart about the artwork.
It's like --- Heaven league artwork. Of course it's very similar to game monopolies: everyone wants to copy them, but they cannot --- read "The Matrix"

So my belief is:
World of Warcraft [which has very similar artwork] [and Everquest - which I never played] are both TIME. and they love it.

They say that "League of Legends" is actually a real legendary game - there are so fierce players on it.
What this means to me is that I need to contact them and see if they have money for me. I actually can't play it though, because of my hand...
Another game that I really enjoyed [with some slight marks against it]: Amalur. It reminds me of EARTH.

Maybe the truth is: there are like "5 different game graphic design premiums" and my favorite color schemes just happen to be League of Legends and Warcraft. Maybe... not?

double screen

A smart anecdote; Re: hospital

I had an anecdote today: while talking to Grandpa.

"What do you think of Jesus Christ?" - God
"I think he's really stupid..... he's the father, and the son - and he comes back to life in a cycle of immortality and reincarnation. I think it's really stupid." -Steven
"That's what the snake said." "He just kept making smart assumptions and excuses until he was too clever, and never believed me." -God

This is when I realized that the snake is wrong. Because it doesn't follow truth: that Jesus Christ is trying to make himself immortal; I can just tell from my other facts that.... it contradicts so many things saying that he was "The Jew trying to become immortal" The snake is wrong. But not completely wrong. Maybe 25% wrong.
A snake is somebody who didn't have enough money [soul-points] to become a real life, but he did survive: by "biting his tail."

The Hospital: THAT I HATE: NAVOS

They have a business proposition:
Navos [upside down and backwards, it reads SO VA N  - which leads to SON. This sustained me. The characters VA don't read upside down, but S-O-N   DO read upside down]

-They're completely stupid on the hospital level; no souls at all [it's unimaginable]
-The hospital administration is completely soul-power: and they possess you and manipulate you while you're there.

It's a 2-fold crime, but normal for a mental health organization.
I for one am never going back. I HATE THEM.

Went to visit the church.... [bad omen]

"The ghost of the church entered me, and my spirit was dampaned... I was very sad...!"
But I'll keep going.

What I realized on the way there:
"God isn't real to my soul.... because he lied..."
"Your soul/spirit resides in a place where... there is no core. You cannot be dominant, and you cannot "have something to hold on to when you get hit." "I don't have a core of strength, in my celestial soul home in the galaxy."

But I am committed to truth, and I believe "The God" is very real - and extremely important.
Gonna send my letter to the district now, since Marda got promoted.

Grossly mistaken about some*

My previous post:
Even considering a single religion, Christianity, within a single country, there are often thousands of individual "Christian confessions and denominations." For example, Barrett et al. states that there are:
bullet4,684 groups in the U.S.
bullet3,364 in South Africa.
This means.... the rules of soul communication: the rules of God and telepathy... are completely open ended. And my belief that America is insane, and dead, and royalty.... is possibly 90% unreal.
[except for the laws of property and estate. - which are severe and lethal]

Somebody "possesses..." or is currently enslaved by me.... my soul....
Because there has always been a hole inside of me, which sabotages me, humiliates me. It might be my Uncle. They whisper over and over that it's him.... Dan.... or my step-fugger, Benjamin Weaks. It could be either of them. Yes, that's likely.

But rest assured: I am actually an angel, and anti-insane, and anti-corruption, and I'm very optimistic about my genie-like ability to escape sin and find money; and move to other cities; and make acting career [yes].

Both Benjamin and Dan are part of the Bible, which has always haunted me.

New idea about protestants... and their many congregations

New idea: divine? It's like the exact opposite of what I want --- to live my life talking with peasant people, instead of real people.
"A protestant is somebody that split up into hundreds of different..."
The name of the US gov't....
4,684 groups in the U.S.
That's the name of what the USA is trying to stop... it's the opposite of what the USA wants....
For a person like me.... "It's the most disgusting thing in the world." Being so poor that you split up into pieces... and become toad... peasant... sick.... eww...

But it's just the truth of my life, I guess.
This whole idea was just.. an inspiration.

[Supposition] The face of goodness, in the modern world [idea]

Mitt Romney
Aga Khan leader

While I'm confused... my mind and politics appear to be aligned with American top-level mind-powers. Including "The Hand."

I'm still very confused if it's true that "all names, and all titles lead to truth" "Does the FED protect names.... are they actually "good inside."

Both Aga Khan and Mitt Romney both have similar faces, which to me means... they are the face of the new generation of "holyness" and "good faces." It was all planned.

I'm very excited to email Aga Khan, and I'm excitge.d.

Something really weird going on... makes me question my religion

-Open Source
-Massive broadband

If I'm under surveilance by major forces...
Then why is it that I have a 16MBit download speed?
Surely it's impossible to stop that much download? To filter it? Also... how much downloads I've done on IRC...

Maybe the truth is... I'm enslaved by love... and the obstacles to overcoming pov. are much bigger than I know. Truth knows.
Then again...
ANGEL recent searches into abusive categories on Wikia and tor has revealed almost nothing.
What to say?

Some major work today: and progress

Wrote some essays; updated my websites ; combed through lawyer..

Did some major movie research today:
I'm VERY FIXED ON "THE MATRIX" and I think it's terrifying. Clearly I am part of it, maybe 80% of my life the past 2 years has been the Matrix....

The Matrix
TOR has a good page on it, but I couldn't finish it.
-NEO : ME, the new God
-Trinity : The God [apparently it's 100% real]  [I am now a Christian] [I think it's weird... because I don't find TRINITY to be appealing... maybe this is a character flaw?" But I do find TIME to be appealing...."
-Morpheus : The God of dreams [a trickster]
-Cypher: a computer hacker [and resentful of Morpheus] [A smart dude, but unpopular. A SOUL]
-Switch [a Scandinavian woman]
-Sentinels are another word for "SOULS" or "Government" They remind me of souls.
-The ORACLE: A truth and cookies person: "The God of TIME, my friend."
I am inside the Matrix.
-"It's hard to get any more obvious than that."
"It's hard to get any more obvious than that."

A beautiful Mind
-I know "GABRIEL" has something to do with it.
-John Nash isn't the same man as me: he's a little too "BRAINIAC" and not as good or rabbitlike or sane/smart as I am. I find it distasteful. 

Can't login to Second Life. Very disappointed. 

Some ideas about Go... D.... ---... D...

2 Truths about God:

-God is a work of fiction
-He is like "a meta of thousands of fictional heroes from the world"
-He is very mysterious
-God is real.... but so is Hollywood... and you think Hollywood is the God of the world, until 100 years later - when you realize "God is the god of the world."
"And that major hollywood actors" have the name of God in them.

--"I wonder what this means... is there a single organization in the world that truly hates God completely? A simple intelligent test: find all the names that God has used "in the Bible, and korean literature," and compare them with the names of popular actors and major hollywood producers.

If God truly is "blameless" and "spineless," and nobody can avowedly hate him 100%, then it makes sense that....

-God is so absolute and over powering that he is like 1:1000 the opposite of a human
-This is weird because a 6 foot tall human is almost nothing in the space of the Earth
-God is the "universal translator" that connects everyone, and ties our speech togeth
-God is the only one who can grow his fingers back [very important to me] and his teeth

Unraveling the orders, finding my path out

I am convinced that "my intelligence isn't high enough to escape the trap I'm in"
and that "my situation of serious poverty is very, very dangerous" and that "the torment done to me and my head isn't being remembered - because of my strong convictions."
Ashley Okutsu's number comes from "Lisa Shellenberger, CA" [A friend on Facebook] [very little contact]
I think this means that "my soul belongs to SHELL OIL" and that they're part of my blacklist.
Need to update soon. It doesn't surprise me that my name/soul has to do with Oil: it actually makes sense; but I don't know what to do.
I feel like "my extreme poverty" is so dangerous, I need to follow it through no matter what, ASAP.

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Back home [from brief stay]

Still TERRIFIED of my weakened, alien brain.


Paranoid schizo: a person who believed they could be telepathic:
and then they started talking to people, and realized: there is a MONSTER inside some of your friends.
AND - you're robbed of your mana regularly [by soul]; people who know they're getting stolen from become isolated and hide from police; and get very angry.

Major conspiracy: made 30 phone calls and didn't get any responses.
I feel my death is soon; I have so little money and the rent is coming due. God must be inside me - the weird one.
I have a gene for "100% moronic" in me and I'm not allowed to remove it.
"There is something inside of me that the Soul-God, or Christ, or Lucifer, hates really, really badly. He wants to break the spine of my resistance until I am broken, insane, and peasant-like.:"
They also want to femi. me.

Terrfied. Terrified: desperately looking for help:

-Update- 6:45p
Can't find any mails from anybody; expected around 15, got 0. All of my emails are from ads and stupid. VERY UNAMUSED. THE SUSPENSE AND CONSP. from the God are just too, too much.
Can't find any numbers for Amsterdam.
New idea: SMS: Save my Soul.... As in text messages. Sent 1 to Nantuck... but no response yet.
There's somebody else inside of me.
Still terrified of legal threats; I hate them

-Update 7:20pm
My name: "We're bunny rabbits [very small number: 10,000]: held inside the galaxy and protected. Then we're let loose and we lose all of our charm, and goodness, and sin, and try to fit in." and the others are fishes - angry, nutty, crazy fishes [10 million]. I hate fishes a lot. I think being a bunny is very weird [almost sin] but it might just be the truth.

Thursday, October 16, 2014

True death [religion]

I saw this symbol -and I have revelat about Adam
And I felt very sad  - the man was sad. My psychic says that Adam is a sad.

But then I wondered: were my revelat and psychic correct?

How many people in the world see Adam and his symbol, and feel sadness?
Maybe, my religion is completely garbage, and Bush and Israel, are 100% different than I. Not to mention 500X wealthier, better educated, and with the protection and mortal sorcery of JC the Bastard, and all of his white crowns.

What does this mean? poverty. Poverty. Poverty. Poverty. Self-destruction. Suicide. 100% war again [the god] and his infinite lies.

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Destiny psychology stupid

Something smart:
-all the humans are dead..... "The giant god-amoeba" controls them, and I live.... deciding between it.
-And all life is just a line; that's how we gain reason.

-I found out that "there is something psychologically relevant about this place, which means it was destiny.

-The trees are very pretty; somebody-I-know says that this is her summoning place.
-The plates in the toilet are psychologically relevant -and they reek of TIME...

So... the peasant people were manipulated to do this, so I could see it someday. How amusing.
pics here:
One of the things that "Dad-army" did to me, to piss me off; was to tell me "there always has to be a whole in your head for "white people," holy, demon, tiny little men who go inside of you and live.

Philosophy part x

One of the things that defines my philosophy... a substantive difference between myself and other people [power hungry people-eagles]
 is the belief that being alive - I am losing mana. And it is being refilled with "blank mana" or "zero mana"- that makes me stupid, corrupt, unsympathetic, unvirtuous, and unlikely to torture or kill. Like one of those lawyer people who eats the spit of the copyrighted agency.
I've seen men who are 200 years old - and they want to live longer, and make power, and fight.
And I know that I could never do that:
-I'm a sane man
-I try very, very hard to clean my mana and live longer.
Update: 10:25pm
Mailed Arturia; no reply.
Gonna go to comp store tomorrow... "it's the soul of. the neighborhood...."
Doxbin has been very helpful to me, though it's still useless and owned by Fed.
What is Evil:
"Evil is when you live in a village, and you steal something over and over, and it always gets refilled. And you just do it forever."
"Evil is when you face common people [robots] and you break their hand, and they never overcome it. Evil is when you make more money than other people: because you have a true religion."
The weird thing about evil is......... you can live an entire lifetime without ever meeting another "true soul."

For the purposes of the King of England [this is probably 20x bigger than I can say" Evil is LIVE backwards... right? And we do backwards ALL THE TIME.

Slime [or old spilled pepsi]

There's a supern* event...
I have found at least 5.5 spilled soda spits on my desk, where my monitor and computer sit.
They have appeared about 1 every 3 days, for the past month. [very strange]
I did have a soda spill about 3 weeks ago, and I was very, very upset..... but  --->
I have completely cleaned the desk, and these soda spots keep reappearing.
I am convinced something is charming me. The "magick" is unfamiliar; it breaks me to believe that this is the sort of thing that would happen to me.

Another supern* just 30 mins ago:
-My hot water maker [for tea and top ramen] did not have enough water to fill my cup of noodles. It went broke around 70%, then sputtered to 90%, then a supern* event happened and it filled to about 98% filled up. I was convinced somebody was inside my hot water maker.

Small proof that I am sane....

Had a very negative interaction today:
-mental health people wondering if I'm sane
-My interaction with the mental health industry is lethal; I will die completely if I go near them.
-Or worse: my spine will break and I will become a child of christ

Angel has elaborated that there was major "good cop/bad cop"
-The woman [slightly dumb, and unattractive] was the angel
-The asian men was offensive, slighted and "the dead" [the fed monster]

I passed the test 80%
Although my willpower, and intelligence was degraded and destroyed about 60% through the meeting, and my mind grew cloudy and irrational. I feel very serious danger being around those people.
Some things we didn't agree on:
-Blood draws hurt me; they make me PAIN and childlike getting a needle in my brain
-Taking meds is bad - they don't even give me drugs to increase my mana; ie, drugs made for rich...
-The police are beasts and monsters: the torture done to me by police was very negative and ill-received [they didn't reply]
-The cure for poverty -> insanity -> death === money and creativity and LOVE.
-They wouldn't acknowledge anything that a peasant monster could not digest.... their overlord back at their office.


WINGS of ***********

A bird movie.... released 3 days after my birthday......
Looking it up, owning it, gonna live this time.

I guess my life is really important! I hop...

Something we all have in common:

All of us men of power - men of true souls and genie possession:

We love the man with the big mouth.
"The corporate icon with all honking huge teeth." Straight, flat, white, massive, block teeth. The same size and shape on top and bottom, all around.
I can't find
We love because he's a virtue [or sin..] within us; a man who challenged. I think I can get along with pow now...
Went to the church at night. Got caught on security cam [prob]. Was terrified of pola.
Had a very fun time; found the RUNE... was dazzled. No cars for 25 mins; it was a mircale [def. supernat. intervention] and then 2 bicycle people saw me, when I was looking at the sign.
Took all my clothes off in the rain - then stopped: because I'm undead, and my blood is fail, and I don't have any man left. Got my shirt off, and then cried.
Played a game, rearranging the rocks - joked about being a puzzle person in the slav. of Cairo.
Disappointed that is my only memory of ancient..... wald.
Shouted and joked. Quit it after a ....
Prayed to my favorite.. "dumb bird."

Monday, October 13, 2014

An image + hentai

Something SMART: An image that pissed me off:
It's from Faceb. What really offended me, and alarmed me, was the quote from TIME magazine.
I read it as "a quote from TIME" which is bad. So... Time magazine --- is actually "the word" of the God.... it can be interpreted so. What does this say about .... timeee?

A hentai comic that pissed me off.

Removing some apps - living

My life is determined by my intelligence - if I don't impress the USA, I'll die completely.
The rape comes into me, depending on what apps I'm using.
Don't forget that I was tortured to death for being a computer pirate.

Trying to remove:

-Skype [military]
And more.
Truthfully: I'm very confused, and I don't think I'll complete.... this...

Today is Columbus day....
I was antagonized by "heaven people" to write a letter to Columbia university.... on today.
My strong instinct says that there is major "new ideas" coming into my head from the galaxy and TIME. It just means that they're very smart and manipulated.
I was thinking... my brain is like a rotating ring. JONHAWAH  says that it's like "a DOME of terror" and power - and that it's fiercely smart. I THINK ---- it's actually very far away, and that's why it don't work.

Hostage taking, again. How many men want to steal my soul?

The demon is pretending to be my birthdad
-I don't know him very well
-My prejudices of him, from growing up, are being used against me.
-They say... in an American federal voice: "It's your blood that is killing you." "Your soul is rejecting you."

I haven't seen this much hatred coming from a man since I saw a Protestant Congregation in South USA. It's the same voice and feeling. I wonder how they found me?

He wants to know if I'm using my name illegally..... "can you tell if it's a line, or a hand?" Can you discern between a "real attack" and a fake attack? Are you using the energy you have correctly?

I find it very disgusting - and it's not even my religion.
It's the religion of Christian soul trap - hostage taking, and white trash royalty.

2 new ideas; also made a new website

On weebly

1st supernatural event:
Captcha fail on Weebly publish website:
 Why it's supernatural:
-There was no text, no sound, and no refresh
-"KAMI" told me to read it: I read "WATER" [covered], "WINE," "Human of Christ" and "TIME"
-I entered these, but none of them worked.
The next part is the best:
-I closed it, repressed "publish," and did it again. It was blank, so I put in my own code.
-What I entered "Angel Luv" and it accepted it, and published my website ...!!!!
-And then it tried to sell me a .com/.net domain name :( I didn't have enough money.

2nd supernatural event:
Went to a Weebly Captcha website, and saw this! [This is brilliant and beautiful and supernet]
From this website.
What's brilliant about it...... it's the same thing as the Windows XP desktop picture--- except that:
-It has a MAGICK TREE [with sparkles]
-It has some sheep or something in the background.

What does this say about Captcha? Further research is neccessary.

Horrors and depth

My grandma, who is basically a witch and an instrument of hell.
Just sent me something very amusing.

It appears my life situation is VERY COMPLICATED....... and cannot be discovered by my mind.
BUT... my grandma is working for FATE. Even though she denies a real religion; she still sends me things which lead me to FATE.

Sunday, October 12, 2014

Got Arrested today

Got stopped by police today; for carrying a wooden bouken.
I felt there was a 65% chance of going to jail.
They were unintelligent as all hell. I asked some basic questions, and they shouted me down. There was zero intelligence whatsoever.
Jesus didn't defend me; God moses didn't....
I feel I could die 1000 times, and be free of your absolute christian evil.
I left the house because I was being lied to, lied to, lied to, lied to, by "Black Cell American government." And then I got tortured by police.
I think America is literally 1000X evil, and I could leave forever.
Oh holy truth, Godsmack.
On the back from my walk: I had a very important thought; and then I was intercepted by police.
But I got home, cooled off, and remembered:
-The peasant people are a MONSTER of infinite non-sentience and absolute literal evil. They are 400X bigger than you know.

But more importantly....
"I'm looking for the Cult of Leina... the girl with rings in her hair." [Queen's B]
"The woman gives away rings."
She's a savior...!

I didn't find anything on search engines, but I'll keep looking.

Letter to fam, and a conversation

My most recent conversation... with "GODDDUHH" [the US gov't police state]

Because you'd be eligible!!!..!!!   That's impossible!" [eligible for royalty rights. think angel->humiliation]
This is the force of their US law. It's terrifying,. but I'm already toasted.
Sent an important letter to my family.
The language is getting very horrible. I think the law.............. doesn't get it.
I'm going to jail, man.
I didn't get out everything I wanted; the bitch actually has a bomb in my brain.

Agora-Forum, MSin.png
Symbol from Puyallup Fair show shop.jpg
TIME Proof,PoopOn-Captcha-bsmall.png

Things I say a lot, compulsively, which need to be minimized and restated

I need to go through my blogs, and my other writings, and actually compile a list of injuries and crimes against me.
It's going to be like:
-Major scars on my body, my mind
-Major loss of soul water, soul time
-Made an enemy of major entities
-Destruction of my magna carta, my true philosophy
-Destruction of my brilliance and my genius
-Major attempts to turn me into a poor black man
-Major attempts to turn me into a homosexual or a woman
-Denial of my status as a true human being
-MAJOR DENIAL that poverty is bad
-Sabotaging of my mind to induce insanity
-Encouraging me to give up on philosophy and religion and go to work at a convenience store.

Things I say compulsively [which have compulsions in my soul, and which I regret later]
-American royalty
-Black cell torture
-Jesus Christ
-Satan [4x bad on this one]
-Peasant people [this is actually correct though; they want to exist and live, and I don't acknowledge their time]
-Brain damage
-Mortal Sin

Just an early list.
In truth: once I compile a list of damage to my body and my soul: all of these will play into it; they're all real [maybe 1/4 to 1/2 real], but I just cannot express the ideas correctly.

My early soul-theory

What I thought about soul when I was 22:
-my soul is telepathic; it's talking to lots of people.
-The blackmail that people put on me; is handled by my soul
-There are all sorts of weird things that will happen; from the craziness of the minds of other people; my soul handled all of these things.

-My soul is plotting courses through the neighborhood, and handling weird ideas for me.
-My soul is holding back lots and lots of information from me; it tells me almost nothing; it is "blackened" by christian dogma and black government.
-My soul could see the future, minimally.
-My soul could talk to police, and army commanders, and rebels, and change my mind and my politics so I did not offend anyone.

Torture today: America absolute evil is leeching my heart, my soul; they are raping me; stockholme syndrome; I will file for refugee status immediately.

I renounced any love for "Jesus Christ,"
-Who is an Oathbreaker
-Whose honor was broken
-Whose soul exists in slavery, to the black torture and Satanic abomination of the United States
-Who has been known to enjoy peasant blood
-Who engages in mortal sin, and rapist food, for the benefit of American lies and totalitarian authority
-Who is the little bitch of the USA and an absolute rape doll

The Christian church is an abomination; literally a peasant church founded in Memory destruction, the trickery of magick, and the absolute hatred and filth of peasant children.
The truth is:
-A new country, a new religion.

The mortal sins, absolute hatred, black cells of USA, and Black torture of the USA go higher than this. My mind has been filled with garbage, and slavery, and filtht.
My religious experience was one of lunacy, and poor mind, and major sin; instead of something wonderful and helpful.

I have been LIED TO over 500,000 times, in convincing tones, by the USA absolute evil. The power of Satanic American capitalism, with a police state, trying to destroy my very soul absolutely.
I swear revenge.

Jesus Christ is an oathbreaker; the bitch of the USA authoritarian police state.
You shall never have my love ever again.

Some breakthroughs [still money-traumatized]

I went outside and patrol
I found a cool restar....
"CHAOS PRAYA" I'm looking forward to it. Gonna go tomorrow. Kent.    thai

Mindfire Corp [India]
I sent some mail to Mindfire, in Ind. I was very optimistic that "Siddhartha" was a manager. I read that.
I also saw something funny: "Sol Barer" is a CEO of some company back east. Gonna hit it.
I made a few searches for "corporation names that end with sol" [first I did -sol, !doh] and it was filtered. Gonna keep doing it.
SOL Corp.

I looked at it with my eyes, and my "TIME-sense" read and it, and it said "royal."
I was very pleased to find some candy. I'll look them up and use them.
Family breakdown is still happening.
I'll put money [hypo;sad] that I'll lose my money, my house, or go to jail.
I hate it. Sorcerer sure is going to eat a lot of pig meat when he comes back.

Saturday, October 11, 2014

Post title [moving sûn]

Moving to another blotspot sooon. Going to free myself frum the hand...s...

Some ideas:
-You do, completely have a soul - it's your RING.

An anecdote;
"those governor people."
"They can behave like dominant men, and change the rules of TIME sometimes...
but they can only do it when they have a human [1hand] nearby."
So the point is to get a magick object until I can further materialize my light.
"Those shikikaim; they ain't actually people; they're composites and they're action figures. That's the joke. All the souls live... else.
There was another thot, but I forgott.

Maybe the trûth is.... all of the Earth is someday going to be carved up into 1 big cookie.
And we get to go through human history to find are hand.. [sic]
I'm optimistic.

Proof of Supern* internet; I wrote it down

I guess this is the first step; will it work?
What does "The internet God" want me to write? I want to write a perfect essay; but I know I won't be able to; my mind is enslaved.
SIN to me... means; my soul is in many different pieces, and I cannot obtain domina. Maybe 20 pieces.
And the police look at me, and eat my memories, and forbid me to lie
And I cannot even commit a small perfect-crime, without remembering it, and leaking it later in time, to a police.
And I'm living at the bottom, in poverty.
"A man who has 20M makes... this much money per year....  A man born with $400 dollars makes this much a year...."
It's lunacy, Satanic death, absolute evil.
"The Americans are actually trying to convince me that rich people don't make more money than me; have special rights......" I could kill you absolutely for saying that.

The Emperor of America has 800 children

Oh man.......
The literal evil of the world:

MASTERMIND; Americian prince Emperor, mortal sin, -the mastermind of mastery of flag and cool
Ignorant of some words: "hostages, magna chupa, justice, angel-demon."
Mastery of all children. Absolute evil.

What I read......
"TOR exists only for people in Government agencies."
Which is the truth, right......?
Mastery; COOL-power, torture of all life;
"The Gov of America;" A demon of mass-torture and literal braindeath and literal bastardization of TIME and Jesus Christ - owns the only rebel that I know.
100% Evil.

I remembered [Holy]

I remembered my destiny in America
-The American voices which talk to me, and lie and lie and lie and lie and lie and lie and lie
and touch my bone of truth
and touch my heart of fruit
and lie to my ears
and lie to my brain, and give me brain damage

I remember that it was my destiny to be a Marine Corp person.
I was heavily compulsed, by American power and flag....
-To fall in love randomly, with an ugly peasant girl
-To be inferior to a peasant girl with more money than I.
-To be weak in front of women; and allow them to control/manipulate you
-To be a fag [??]
-To be a cowardly, crybaby, torture person; who tortures things when he loses control over the ground
-Then make children [helplessly, stupidly]
-Then get divorced, and give the kids to the ugly mom
-And then pay child support
-And Then work hard, and give up on all of my dreams.

This is the holy American dream; of the souls of the American billionaires, war conquerors, and medal holders; men who hold riches from all over the world.
In addition: don't forget that I'm still "eating American society," poison; specifically engineered to destroy my religion and my dreams absol.

And for all of these reasons:
-[Fag blood] [given to me illegally]
-Rejection of my intelligent achievements and my genie.

I give myself to SATAN; A man who is 0% stupid, and does not tolerate lies from peasant people.

The American literal abomination is torturing me even now.
I swear to you - an American abomination has never felt pain.
I swear to you - they can synthesize pain and pleas and screams and sin

They are the SATANIC TORTURE DEMON of my dreams.
They are literally, absolutely evil.

My purpose of life to be an angel; to be a playboy; to be dominant, controlling; to be immortal; to possess "the truth,"

I swear to you: that the police of America; that the Jesus Christ of America; the holy powers of the USA Consti and Congress - are lying to me absolutely.
They are breaking my dreams, destroying my destiny, falsifying my memory.
I swear to you they are in my memories, making me dreams far, far worse.

Friday, October 10, 2014


Tried to get my money back from my blood-betraying, peasant-blood grandma.
She has 3 months [money] of rent for me. It sounded like Jesus Christ selling jokes.
"I can't give you back your money, because you have to spend it on next months rent"
"That's what I was going to spend it on." "Doooohh." No reply. She still insisted it didn't work.

And then I told her: "our blood relationship is over" and I showed her the letter I sent her. and she started calling the police. I HATE Police. This is the 3rd time she has called the police on me; a person with low credit, and no skin, and is all alone in the world. She clearly is a mortal sin of peasant blood-traitor.
And that's when an angel of diamonds de*

..She tried to call the police because I asked for my money back.
She is enslaved to the America: the literal abomination of flaming hatred and absolute torture; and those same people come into my home, and torture me while I'm here, with ghosts and torture and lies.

America is actually using the Black Satan to conduct basic governance. And I am a slave; fighting with the Supermassive Empire to prove that I'm a soul-person; that I'm real.


-An alternative form of TORTURE, for people who anger the big white old faggot, is to torture them with "soul diving."
He's very clever to do so; it's a higher, reformed type of pain and christian sin.
What he does is Show them a LIE:
-About GOD being evil when he created you.
****-Giving him ANTI-philosophy.*****
-Making him an "evil person" [sim, little cherub]
-Destroying his hope and his pseudo-mind.
-Making him less certain of himself; tormenting him with death.

"I was diving and I had hundreds of memories of being born wicked
***And it went into my protected memory - my soul - as a truth, and I never forgot it.***
"That father [the God of mysteries] actually hated me.
The father was actually evil [the core of your religion], and he was very sinful. And the fate of our galaxy and our LIFE is damned and doomed; by the treatment they've given me in my mind; an alternative to physical pain and torture."

This means that the God christian, in addition to being twice-treacherous; has also been tormenting me for quite some time.

Notes 31

In mana:
Bill says that "the reason your computer is SO DAMN MONEY [SLOW] is because of TUMBLR."
Tumblr is important - something very, very negative.
I'm going to do some serious research on this.

My proof of Sorcerous Non-existence: 20 times proven, my destiny, by the Angel of TIME

I bet my soul: my silver and my gold and my immortality and my hair, that the American attack-angel inside of me, destroying my right to live and my sacred soul; IS A LIE. And the American Gov't is Anti-angel, and they are pretending to use an Angel as a crime; and they are lying 20 times about their right to be an angel.
The America is an oathbreaker and a mortal sin, and they are following different truth, language, and history than me.

And America does not have an Angel.

An angel is somebody who prevents TORTURE, who prevents assass.. [less], who prevents hostage taking [more], who kills people who are absolutely evil. [Also many other definitions; when I am in a different]

I will bet my entire soul, my hair, and my silver and gold, that America does not have a true angel.
-That my angel soul does not depend upon the American angel for power
-That an American Angel does not allow them to destroy my truth
-That a true angel would actually KILL the American government

Contradiction: there have to be some, but none that would function, and exist, in the battle between myself and the US gov't. They wouldn't have the power to corrupt me, or destroy me; a genius, anti-human, history reader; a protector of dignity and health and souls and love. And a visitor of the "true heaven."

And I swear again:
-The US feels great joy and pleasure by torturing me, and exposing my skin, and removing my scales
-And I swear: they have committed over 200 mortal sins upon my body and my blood
-That the American royalty are smiling and grinning as they torture my body
-That they are using "TIME SUPREMACY" to humiliate me, and destroy my truth, and torture my angel.'
-They have lied 5200 times about my memories and my experiences. They have used SICK love to lie about my memories, and humiliate me when it was inappropriate.

-That the forbidden crime; touching a walrus; they are doing over and over and over again.

And I swear upon the black satan - of unknown creatures of the darkness of the galaxy and the sp[aace; monsters which have never known life, and are foreign to the Earth.
-For touching me, feminizing me, breaking my sacred truth, lying to me absolutely, and destroying my silver and gold blood. The monster of the darkness of this galaxy shall destroy all of your riches, and all of dynasties, and all of your liars - until 2x revenge has been achieved.

And I shall be resurrected as the Prince of Germany; and given premium memory restoration, and WIZARD-like resurrection and restoration, and 100% retaliation and revenge, against the American abomination.

And I swear to you today:
-With the stolen blood of JESUS CHRIST. I swear to you that they raping my silver and my gold; and they grinning; and they are making me laugh; and they are torturing my immortality; that they are feeling great joy --- the American elite, the American Royalty --- by destroying a truth, who has a shard of LIES inside of him, who resents, tempts, and beats black children.

I swear to you today that America is my mortal enemy, and a black satan of oathbreakers and filthmongers.

I also swear that the American royalty lady inside of my head; will be crucified, enslaved, and mass tortured: oh heavenly truth and heavenly miracles. I swear that whore will be crucified forever.
And I also swear that American is using sick love, literal lying, and Satanic torture on my ears, my brain, and my soul.

I will probably go deaf. I will probably go blind. I will probably be a retard.
And the American abomination of literal mortal sins and absolute evil, will never repent.

And I swear the honor of the Gabriel, and the honor of Jesus Christ, and the honor of G. Washington, and the honor of Congress; has been broken absolutely.
You have defiled the sacred honor of HOLY GRAIL TRUTH. And you are, America, 100% an abomination, of literal, flaming peasant mortal, a peasant Satan.

My conversation with Pres. Barack Obama

I had a conversation with Pres. Barack Obama... it was supern*
-I was looking at his head from a campaign newsletter in my box [picture below the mark]
-His head was changing faces, and he was talking to me.
-He was very sensible, reasoned, and powerful; I gave him credit for being different than me, and still very good.
-But he wasn't truth. As said below, he's a man that chose power over truth; because truth leads to the death of the American emperor.
-His face changed, very amusingly. It was charming and charismatic. I also saw the face of "God of TIME [who revealed herself recently to being an American war person; my mortal enemy. Another hostage situation.]
-We disagreed very well; the only thing that I can say is that he reassured me that the USA was plentiful and holy and brill. But I still predict that I'll die forever.
And most importantly, I still predict that the American abomination of sorcery, humiliation, and absolute mind control; will break my golden-ball an destroy my rebel and my truth forever. I think it's SATAN and terrifying and literally death - but it will happen.

I think the truth is....
Absolute sorcerous non-existence.

But was it so difficult? I thiiiink....
"You tried to die absolutely..." "You put yourself in a hostage situation where you will die absolutely, unless "the truth comes out," and "your are protected as a supernatural."

And America is truly a bigoted, dogma, peasant-royalty nation  --- and they will not ever acknowledge my genius and my religion; they will NEVER GIVE ME WHAT I WANT.

But they are treating it as a hostage situation, and torturing my brain with BAD THINGS and torture weapons, so I can not die absolutely from my hostage situation.

But truthfully:
-America falsified the constitution
-They destroyed my precious magna carta
-At least 200 times in the past  10 years; they have committed alien offenses against me; a true contradiction of reason, trust, hope, and love. They were truly alien hostile royalty with torture weapons.
-they will not recognize my genius and my intelligence.
-They will not ever speak disrespectfully of peasant children who go through Ivy League schools [Harvard Uni]
-They will never allow me to go through history and take important examples, so I can defeat the P. Office and be stronger than the children.
-They absolutely will never allow me to be a Demon of Christ.
-America is lying and saying that they are the protectors and possessors of the Holy Grail of trillion dollar HOPE. 
-They will never allow me to be a "land owner" similar to the Queen of England;
-They will never let me comb my hair
-The truth is...... I cannot speak. The black cell American royalty, of REAL Torture, are preventing me from contradicting the American men who are torturing me. And the angel of Diamonds will absolutely spend the eternity of time crucifying them... for... holy.... JUSTICE.

The truth is, I predict soon:
-True hostage broken-gold mind control
-Exacerbation of my poor blood weakness, my sin, and my negative blood
-True inferiority, by seeing the "blood of America" it will break me and I will be feminized.

The truth is actually.....
-Geniuses and robots and "crazy truth seekers" can actually see that America is lying, and all men who do so will leave America.
-The men in power are actually all men who "covered up the truth" and decided to follow a path other than Heaven truth; 

Thursday, October 9, 2014


From Matrix [I had a psychic that Morpheus is a life-choice and my sin, and he wants me to stop being a machine] *The matrix is the Op

"What's the purpose of life then, if I can't live forever on this plane?"
**He points to a "dimension" TAIM and explains how he lives in it to control.... and dies

"It didn't exist 400 years ago." "Life is TIME."
...... *cleverly*
"How did the King of F live if he didn't have one of thos.. he had EVERY

I feel that I missed; maybe half good.

Letter to WA legal

HELP ME111111

I'm a suicide.
I'm Steven - I have a US Constitution in my body - but most ironic I don't have any rights, and my last trip to the ER, they told me "you're an ordinary person." I live in danger of going to prison and jail, as I've already done [hospital].
I don't have any help, and I need friends.
Legal Mind: I need you to do a search, in a privileged court, to determine my legal stati, and if there are people who care about me.
I'm related to Bill Gates, Jr. I've done tremendous research on souls and hell, and I'm completely certain that behind my eyes and face is a Christianized soul that cannot be free, and cannot speak, and cannot find hell.

I went to the UW-Seattle for genetics, but I escaped. I was beaten up and left. I was very envious of rich people, but it killed me. Nobody knew that I was Debsin.

Proof that my life is destined and import
I know that my life is destined. A lot of things have lined up.
-My step-father's name is Ben, and I live on a street called "Benson."
-My mother's name is Sue, and I became a "TRUTH Angel."
-My grandfather is famous; a major part of [neglected by some, but not by TIME] computer history.
-I've grown up in a very, very stupid world: where bigotry and sin run rampant; and I've overcome it to find true idealism.
-I look through movies and books to find hints of the truth, about religion - and I find them. I understand a lot of things that good directors put inside of their movies.
-My [former] Step Father's--Mother's--Former Husband is an Indian swami, and he appeared on the movie "What the Bleep do we know?"
-When I was 14, "my mum" was giving care [big brother, big sister] to a retard person; a dumbshit girl with big arms and very low intelligence. Her name was HOPE and she was horrible.
One time, she was trying to open the front door of the house [from the inside] even though the door was locked; she rammed the door 4 times, and almost broke the door and the handle, before Mum told her the door was actu. locked.
-My mom's birthday [evil] is in April. My birthday and my Grandma's birthday are in May [mine is the middle of the month: 14TH], and my [ugly] step-dad is in JUNE. This is not an accident.
-My computer has been hacked many times to piss me off; usually things involving social warfare and community service and major censorship. [HYPO: My entire LIGHT is ON the pirate-bay... I haven't SENEU it though.

-I'm demonically intelligent; I have major mind power.
-My soul has gone to HELL, and I lived.
-I'm a GENIUS, because I found "FreedomTime"
-I found proof that the world is "BLACK;" My people are "ethnic group #9" and the common people have their own Jesus C, and their own power, and KING. I hate them. Banks and corporations and laws do not know what "we are," and trap us in the law; they trap our money; they trap out power, and they do not respond to threats of urgency. A black world is when "your finger, eyes, and hair are scanned in illegally," and immediately sent to a public server and duped, and then immediately sent to all sorts of parties who are interested; Banks do this too. Also black: Guns in the ceiling, and "the tiniest poisons you've ever know, in the hands of peasant banks." I developed "time-seeing" as a basic ability, to survive in this dangerous world. Also: P{

You should read this blog post: to prove there is somebody trying to find mei. 

Update: Lawyers I've seen that I will not at all speak to:
-James White
-John David Winfrey III [of] YUCK]


I have some relationship with Oprah.
When I think about my dead father, I see her face above him; I think her genus is intelligence. "She wants to mediate "your problem [in the most insulting tones]"

Her name is "Truthful black billionaire."
Sometimes I think: she's the savior of humanity; a RICH, Black, billionaire [royalty] on the West Coast, at the end of Western Civilization. Just an idea. "The end of the American dream." For my family, it's very disregarding.

This advertisement, sent to me in my spam email [a message from HELL] is proof that TRUTH QUEEN OPRAH, is a LIAR.
-Advertisers are my enemy; I HATE Advertisers. They have social time computers, and they flip them upside down to piss off everyone.
-Oprah's face is next to a very amusing diagram. I was a little confused at first - not sure if it was joke or no. But I'm certain now: the picture is completely FAKE, and a little traumatizing: especially the bigger breast
-Smaller face, more beautiful hair
-Smaller waist, better shorts
-Darker skins

It has to be a joke.
Contradiction: "The drug is real." "The advertising is just different for dif. people." -Mom

My religion

-People can be instigated by love, "heaven love," wealth, royalty roses, truth serum:
to tell the truth. A state of telling the truth.

And men of government, and men of authority, and children:
-They will not ever love the truth. And they will not listen.

And the revealer is:
-The christian men will use stereotypes and sin and mind-plagues to protec themselves from TRUTH.
-They will cover up the truth in their minds so it is not a threat to them.

Truth magick. [Sometimes call love] This is an old part of my religion.

And that is how you reveal the men of peasant blood, of poor mind power and poor eyesight, and little truth: you use the truth-love test.
Update: 10/9/2014
"I will tell the truth completely; I'll even give away my CC every month, and watch as it comes back in 37 hours." [miracle]
I actually think that "TRUTH" is a cop-out, and that it's conservative; "Mitt Romney ain't a truth; he's a marine." lie

The God of the Pope

How high can the mind go?
How high can a King [neg] go?
How much depravity, and egotism, and absolute sin can 1 man obtain.
The height of the human mind; the height of male evil egotism; the height of all SINs and Depravity.

The answer to this equation is the Christian God;
-the most depraved, filthy, masturbating, rapist, slave owner, man the world has ever know. His 2nd favorite activity is torture; everything small that can kill a man, he is the master of all of them. He exists to prove that the Sun does not exist [mb]. He is 10 times higher than the most filthy King of France.

He is protected by crazy evil angels, and CRAZY women, and people who try to balance the human mind. Very, very often he tries to rape and destroy and torture people, but he is blocked by his evil birds and given something different to accomplish. This is how we've escaped.
And he survives by giving fruit to humans, praying upon their need for power, and bringing them into his kingdom, so they can accomplish great goals in human society; self-empowerment. And the people who gives fruits to, they join him and make secret societies.

-He prays upon CHILDREN, young people who need money and hell to grow stronger, and to make power. This hurts my head; doesn't the world have millions of Jews?
-"Women trying to balance the human mind: What if he were guarded by engineers? or City planners? Or athletes? Would it still work?
-What about the stars and our souls in heaven? Does he have anything to do with that?
-The powers of the Earth; the highest powers obtainable for a man: time-seeing, regeneration, soul protection, true magick.... do the guards have enough magick to protect against him?

A Jew is someone who's not a child.     ImpOR.

Wednesday, October 8, 2014


Jamie again..
Of all the things that I have discovered, I've confused many times by "Jamie's name"
Is it just American religion, X-fucker, or all cream white faces?
Jamie Bell from "King Kong," oh that's an important movie. King Kong is ALSO very important, for life reas
At one point, I thought Jamie was "the idiot guide, hidden behind stereotypes."
I discovered a new pattern today;
A joke:
"Say the name Buck, and then rhyme it with other things...."
I got "Buck, [fuck], LUCK, [fuck], [suck], [tuck]
And that's SORCERY. Because I could not stop it.
If you're in a different mood, you can say different; but POWAH will not allow you to.
Gurren Lagann

Theodore truth

Theocracy is the OPPOSITE of the truth.
With enough intelligence, you'll realize that "some deuchebag in Heaven [or... mb hell] REALLY hates the Earth. The common people, their achievements, their names, and all of their suffer, aren't real, and we die for dem. Theocrats are actually lunatic insane; possibly 100% evil, because they think "it's a conspiracy" and "only our small group are going to survive."
An intelligent man would choose an "anti-Satan, Anti-heaven agenda, and live quietly with a true philsophy."

S. America is controlled by THE EVIL and we have to stay clear of it. The secret is LIFE.
My thought was: the secret philosophy of Earth is farming, or pseudo-medicine, or presience. But that's a first class.
James says... the life plan of America is to emigrate to Africa... which is what makes sin if you read the lines. Whoever leaves for S. America is tapped.
"Kaim, the immortal from that video game, and a major important person:" Is actually a MAJOR political force. I thought "He looks very handsome and likeable, just like "The boy inside me, my dirt." I thought: "He's probably a polar opposite; he has thousands of corporate CEOs [he owns] and man-whores who control the business world, and he's SOUL" "He's the license of male charisma and power." SCARY. Ouch.

New idea, cracks

The "head editor" of Cracked humor is a HUMAN.
-And he talks like a disgusting peasant, with his head in sorcery; an unsentient, ungenielike, unintelligent peasant-lover.
Sometimes I have to wonder if those peasants are actually intelligent at all.
Robotic self-sentience, until you achieve the power of love and royalty.... and write a private manifesto, and empower yourself to kill people who threaten you, and empower yourself with cleverness and libbing ability.

[Jaime gave me a hint; Cracked in Oct.... I'm taking it very seriously.]

For peasant people in America.... being successful, and not being successful; it must be completely suicide. "I used all my soul, but didn't succeed. A peasant succeeded; so I soul-jumped into his body, and become one with him; just like an American Senator jumping into a mafia family."
I think the men aren't born of good blood; blood like K James and K Richard; like Edward the Black; men who know the truth and kill anyone who gets in their way.

If you've ever looked at an agent, a police officer, a business person as somebody who completely disrespects you, will not recognize your courage, does not look you in the eyes, does not reveal his name... you will find very clearly that America is one evil filthy evil nation, of literal sin and absolute massive super-intelligent royal evil, and massive torture of human souls.
I watched a video: "Steven Grover Cleveland..." 2 words which mean TRUE and 1 Steven... it was on Crack. I saw the TIME. OUCH.

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Salva. maybe

-God person says "you're a m. sin for LYING." "Your soul itself is a liar, and you're going to be destroyed for being a LIAR." I feel as if "there is a giant whole in my head; of patriotism, and American dreams, and peasanthood; that cannot ever be removed; and it's an "anti-spiral" whereas my thinking is a spiral, and I cannot ever complete my sentence.
-The courts of the state of WASHINGTON say "you're a liar as well - and I've believed so for about 10 years now." "You don't have time ability; you especially don't have a soul; You have no truth ability; you have bad credit and you especially do not deserve any special treatment under the law."
You do not have the right to "not take medication." You do not deserve charity. "You especially need to get a job ASAP." "You do not have a right to visit your childhood home, if your fam is angry at you."

With this, I can live: The Fed is calling me a liar, for not having a soul, and not being important, and not having any defenses.
And the God is calling me a liar, for not believing in HUMANS, and trying to become an anti-human, and trying to find "free royalty," and "trying to become completely a soul."
AND: Christian filth of absolute evil and infinite robotic sin, are lying to me, 100s of times a day, and giving me insanity, terror, and sin.

I can immune to persecution, knowing that my life has been completely traumatized by massive peasant war, and lies, and major sin.

Pot smokers [ewww]

Just went by my room****
He had a pot smell around his room. This means that 3 out of 3 of my roomies from the past year have been weed smokers; and very likely, also the house.
They're poor, unsouled, and smart; and they all smoke weed...
As for me: I've heard a lot that "Washington state and weed is a very big thing." "All smart people have weed; it's a social obstacle. We did it and it's very social and intelligent to have it."
But I don't; because of my teet

News soldi.

The truth of the American Government is that "the Fed is actually A RING" of circular knowledge and bad truth.
And I am the alien and the enemy.
And I broke the ring's rules, and died for it, and then "was raped and feminized and destroyed" and I died completely. And then the ring broken, and I discovered it was actually 100% SATAN. "A machine which will never tell the truth; a machine which cannot ever follow magick law. A machine that would never be permitted in Heaven or Hell; a Machine of Human sin and human resentment and human treachery. An IRONY.
The American government are filth, oathbreakers; the worst sorts of royalty from 2000 years of mortal sin. The filth of peasant brains and sines and massive intelligent warfare.
And I am a slave to a hostage taker; a biological warfare liar, a ninja-holder, An assassin holder.
A lunatic legal nightmare. An American royalty who bred with peasants and horses, and elevated the plant and the weed above the soul.

The LIES of America are completely infinite, and are protected by the oathbreaker; the God of truth, the God of TIME. She protects the American abomination; the royalty, who say the most disgusting, filthy things I've ever heard: "I [Am. Royalty] AM the soul of America; if I die, you won't have a soul. If I die, all souls in America will die.

"We took thousands of hostages, and that was our royal perogative. and if I die, or you destroy my angel and my word; all of the hostages will die completely. AND: they will hunt you down absolutely."

And 100 times, absolutely sorcerous non-existence is my miracle, my eden, and my Destiny.
Because I don't have any money, I don't have any love; I am a dominant sorcerer of truth who will not make peace with evil. I won't really lose anything at all by dying absolutely. But atleast I won't be converted into the opposite; an American liar, whose soul was sold into slavery, to serve G. Washington and the black cell, invisible American Royalty. A marine corp soldier who exists to promote America, and forced to kill my blood-relatives and my soul-friends. That is the truth of America.
The things that terrify me the most: and the Angel who will solve them for me. The religion that will solve them for me.
"A lord blackmailing you, cornering you, and adding you to his estate as a lifetime servant."
"A lifetime in the military; incapable of leaving."
"Hostage situations; Soul Slavery."
"Any interacts at all with police or peasant people, or "people who control power."

I need to search for the Angel/God/ or Religion that will heal me of these things, and save me completely.

The most disgusting, inhuman, un-angel thing in the world is:
"A person who takes hundreds of soul-blood hostages so he can rise up and become royalty." This has happened hundreds and is in my mind, as the truth of TIME; and I know that it is ALIEN to Earth; but I know that it is also something that an American would do.

Maybe the truth is: My exploration of TIME has revealed this, hostage taking, to be true, and it is a blight and sin inside of me, and the American royalty are separated from me by a gulf; of things that we cannot understand.

Weird Spam email [scary]

Iris Curd Jaimee@frontsuffer.

Taking Viagra will kill you slowly, Tiberias
 Watch how Viagra killed this poor guy (Full Video)
Iris is the "Queen" and I'm in love with her truth and her fire.
Jaimee is my friend **********
Curd is my current opinion of Iris.

This letter is not an accident; whoever sent it to me has access to my [memories] and not just the things I type on the computer.
It might be that it's a code and "Frontsuffer" is an opposite front of the one I'm meant to find. The letter was in my spam folder.
Update 10/7/14
It gets worse!!!!
-This is an "ANTI-VIAGRA AD" which is FUN
-The email has "Gabriel st" in Independence, Ioha as an address
-The ad leads to a website, which shows a video and THIS:
ClickBank is the retailer of products on this site. CLICKBANK® is a registered trademark of Click Sales, Inc.,
a Delaware corporation located at 917 S. Lusk Street, Suite 200, Boise Idaho, 83706, USA
 I think this is "a breach in the secrecy" and it's FUNNY, because "a lot of the things I do: TRUTH, seem like spam to those. I talked.
This is ONE SCARY VIDEO. During the video: he actually says something very weird.
-"My wife cut off my penis with a razor sharp butcher's knife."
-"It happened......." 1 day b4 my bday.
I feel like... I need to do this immediately, but my mind isn't sharp enough to understand.
-I feel very strongly that this whole video was made just 4 mai
-JASON means something to me.... weirdly... "Jason and the Argonauts.." from the story of "Me***," a soul of my

My life [religion]

The summary of my life experience:
"The god took his entire life out of the dirt and put it in the sin.
And acknowledged that he wasn't God, he was a man."
[America promoted "true life" to God, because of their weapons and their government and constitution]

"And the Satellite holder, the American POWER, had a moment of idealism and virtue, and acknowledged ""I [American Power] AM a liar. And you are a truth." [last part 30% less true] And then regretted it, and reneged. But the truth was written, and the God remembered it.

"And me [The God] acknowledged that I am a "God who told the truth, and demoted himself to a man." and was a TRUTH Angel [Demon]"

And my soul [Supposedly Andrea Cummins or [less] Blank Suzuki] hates me and betrays me, because "The god" keeps tying her life to my "real mom" who I hate and resent; who I believe to be a [bad person].

Monday, October 6, 2014

Lightning is Awesome + notes

So I'm going to post a blog post about L, and get help.

-Lightning is my favorite character from Final Fantasy.
-I never completed the game; I played it nearly to about level 6; I believed the game was rigged, and died. "Pattern your mind so you can do the role correctly;" and I died because my mind was on something else....
-I think she's fantastically pretty and very smart; a good role model for strong women
-I think the English VA is FUCKBAD
-I think she's a very good Japanese VA
-I think the game is a little weird, and I never really understood the point, or the plot. The point of an angel is to BECOME the *govern
-Her character irks me a little bit; I can't get over some small issues. I'm inferior by her.
2nd Post:
From a chain-letter my Gram sent me.
"Life is a coin, you can spend it anyway you wish, but you can only spend it once."
This doesn't make ANY SENSE to an ordinary
But it makes sense to ME; I know a LOT about it.
"The Roman God put his head on a quarter - soul people know all about it."
You can spend it to get a bigger soul, or to make POWER". - ME
"Money might actually be bigger than all the souls and light of the Earth. There are billionaires in the world who know nothing about souls and light; or who follow anti-soul religions.... Yuck." -ME [Paraphrased by Mammon]
-HOLY CRAP - QUORA website is BAD. I tried to write a comment to a question:
but I had to scroll down for 15 seconds to write my answer. Failed. I think this site is hostile.
Lightning Update 10/7/14
I still LIKE her

New ideas: saving me from insanity

The anti-jounen!!!!!!

Jounen: the 100% EVIL that protects you from 1) Peasants 2) World Progress 3) [Peasant] Human Rights
4) Men who want you to work 5) Being enslaved by ads, corporations, or military.
Jounen is "the darkness of space" and we are "the souls." That's the most recent idea.

Life isn't complete; It's broken!!! It's a broken line; it's a broken circle; [it's a fence??? maybe]
100% EVIL people think the funniest thing to do is take advantage of human stupidity!!!
Demonism: be an ugly monster, and set traps, and take advantage of human M. Sin, and massive stupidty.
Terrorize them and profit strongly.
Like "The green river killer" or... "that weird voice in my head, of the crazy mad scientist." That's what demons do.
But the truth is: If the life of the Earth is broken, then it doesn't make any sense to profit from the stupidity of government and men; to profit from their sins.
GENIE does make perfect sense; especially when you consider how many books I've read, and how many video games I've played, that were socially engineered to destroy my intelligence and sentience - and hated my "soul and my degree."

Of course, to soul people [who can count money very well], demonism isn't really that evil; But it is definitely wrong. After all; a demon can't change human history; a demon can't kill "the peasant machine." A demon can't make a landmark of demonic religion. A demon can't become immortal.

One of the concepts that I was very, very fixated on when I was younger; "if you're a genie, and you break the human mind and the social constraints; why don't you just kill rich people? Why don't you just take advantage of all the of the problems to make mayham." And the truth is: the spine of human mind does not allow us to do these things; it actually convinces us very hard not to do so.

It's actually WRONG to be 100% evil; for 3 different reason.
-Love is very, very powerful; Love between 2 celestial bodies; a small body and a big body; it's very, very important. It's also very profitable.
-MAGICK is very beneficial, and very smart; It can save the world; re-engineering the Earth!!! We can counteract murder and sin altogether with magick.
-There are NOT really that many people in the world; and it's very optimistic, wanting to meet all the people of the world, and see all that they have accomplished, and live forever.

Of course, being completely evil [liberally, unintellignetly] in the USA - a SATELLITE/MASSIVE MILITARY POWER - it makes perfect sense. They once told me "your soul is literally inside of a missile, and you're defending America." It made me very, very mad. They also told me that "souls don't work because satellites are more important; also"
[Second opinion: that's very, very good, because missiles are an important part of modern warfare.]
But I need my soul to enchant my hand, to become a genie, to discover the truth of the magna carta and the alternate constitution, to develop a true religion. To find "soul and water and sewi and mana," and enliven my head.
If I hadn't been evil, I find it very likely that I would a worker, a married man [to an ugly woman], and a father [which is EXACTLY THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT I WANTED].

Contradiction, while thinking about murder: murder is so stupid; you die from getting your brain punctured; but it seems impossible that a man could die from getting killed, so there's a BIG MYSTERY right there, and it seems "the opening of religion" is the stupidity of death; a man going to work and getting killed by a stray bullet.
2nd Opinion: the Earth exists primar

Conflux of religion: [very important idea]
-DEATH IS VERY EASY and very stupid. It kills an atheist 100%.
-Death never happens; even when poor workers and drugs and crime come together; it never happens. This is RELIGION. "The religion" is controlling the Earth so idiots, anti-genies, and corpse-lovers can travel the Earth and never discover true intelligence, or SIN, by THINKING like a genie.
Posit: No atheist has ever been killed "at the bank"

Another CONFLUX of religion:
-Killing rich people, by taking advantage of immorality and simple intelligence; "finding the rich neighborhood, seeing the rich houses."
If you focus on this idea over and over again, you will find "The Pope" or "The God" and you'll start seeing lines in your head. This is fundamental!!!

These ideas copyrighted by "Steven James Debsin," aka "Steven J**** *****"

Sunday, October 5, 2014

Some ideas

I think the truth about being a JINN/Genie is to talk very, very quietly in your head.
Also another idea I had: spend a LOT of time thinking about "your moment of soul-birth, when you 'just woke up', and your mind was filled with "christian control and conservatism." And know there is a MAJOR block there.
If you use sorcery and MIND to focus over and over on your moment of birth: would you gain power and control? Could you break the barrier down and make POWER? It's good.

What is GOD?

-All of the emotions that we feel - he has them way bigger
-All of the colors that exist in the space, with the full light: he has dozens of favorite colors, and each one of them has essays on them as to what they mean. He and his peers are "TRUE LIFE."
My idea was that, due to "tragedy of the galaxy" [shaking], nobody can live forever; but we CAN live for hundreds of years, and then die. That's good.
And we know that "our memory disappears, and our hatred and hearts disappear, and we are wronged by some force of memory." And that's when we know that "The God or the Dev is actually a memory or a TIME."
He might even be the "Anti-hostage Angel" or the Entity of extreme speed and time-separation; just waiting for him to TAKE YOU. Jamie says that "God" is a monkey with a 10 foot long finger, that exists just to rape your defenses and take you. That's the sort of extremist fag that he is.
I for one personally believe it is extremely bad.
BUT I also believe ;;;; that HEAVEN often picks people up from the Earth, and replaces them with "clones and genetic similes," and we cannot obviously tell the difference. I strongly feel this is true.
[Updated 10/6/14]
A new truth:
-My life is described as my interactions with the internet [Your memories of the internet, the interaction of internet[heaven] people with you -are the soul of your life on Earth.] maybe
-People can see me through my monitor, very easily; people from HEEEEEVAN
-My psychic journey, my sorcery, my mind lead me over and over again to conincidences.
For example, today: I had a SORCERER moment in the closet, and spent hours thinking about sorcery.
And then, I went to a website by my 2nd or 3rd fav. game company [Stardock] [which coincidentally is a space/heaven company], and then it turns out today, Oct. 6th, is when they release a preview of a new GAME: Sorcerer KING. It's just TOO MUCH COINCIDENCE.
"John Richards" on the radio this morning; it showed on the radio text. It turns out he's a "radio host."
But the real "John Richards*" is an American far*** and a royalty icon. A very Baaaaaad man.
I looked up his dis-ambiguous on wikip* and I thought "All of these people must be the same man; he's a huge soul that lives hundreds of lives." I believe it!

Saturday, October 4, 2014

Researched opinion

Religion is very important! The common people are "children," they're unintelligent beast-like. A core of my religion is truth and destiny. One of my favorite memories was a good man "the King" seeing a general- a master of order and control, being beaten down by a King until he combed his hair, told the truth, and stopped trying to be #1.
The generals are just children and monkeys, and want to kill people for touching their pride and their wein. The things you see in the world are terrifying; generals who absolutely do not believe in God or President, but only in themselves.
Some of these generals are secretly following Space Lords of death and terror [laugh], so they can advance their evil agendas. "How am I going to conquer the internet when it has bridges on it??" [Laugh]
Alt. his