Tuesday, December 22, 2015

Unscientific and blatantly lying Youtube channels.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8NAJIH-BOXM : 
Top 10 Science Experiments That Could Have Ended The World
I have no clue what to do about these abominations. My post here:
This is so unscientific and stupid. I really just want to put barcodes on you people for propagating ignorance and stupidity forever. My favorite one was about the black hole being produced by the LHC and swallowing the Earth, as if that is even 1% possible. It definitely isn't.
I really wish I could live in a world where everything I read was true and educational.
I'm struggling with some really big problems, stemming from the fact that I have no true education about souls or religion, and that my entire life is dependent upon me making a soul breakthrough.
Every day, I have to sift through truth and lies and find the best answer, and it's very difficult.

I know that the truth that exists in my brain isn't completely accurate, for two reasons.
1) I don't talk to lots of people about it, and find a consensus.
2) I don't use the scientific method and experimentally discover the truth about souls and religion.

There is one thing that I am completely certain of, though: 
The soul is far, far more important than the body, and the human beings of the Earth are almost zero percent smart.
And I have put all my money, time, and interest on the soul!

Saturday, December 5, 2015

Something crazy or supernatural just happened!!

I searched ask.com for "How many souls are currently on the Earth?"

And the 2nd result (I skipped the 1st one) shows a webpage by
http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?45101-How-many-souls-are-currently-incarnating-on-Earth

And the post talking about souls is written on my Birthday, May 14th.

I've always been really concerned about the internet and just how smart it is, but it seems the internet is 100% smart today.

I've been asking this question: "How many souls or soul-existences are there on the Earth, including mine?" For nearly 6 years now. It was the question that I began to ask when I left my vanilla biology science education and began to venture into the world of souls, of which I am obviously a part of. I believed that the soul was the source of intelligence, and that I needed to do some work, or heal myself, to be smart enough to finish my degree at the University of Washington, and continue on into something really amazing, like Genome Sciences.

I believe that maybe I have become famous now for this question that I am asking, or that this is just one webpage that deals with this question that was thrown at me by the search engine.

I won't forget this for quite some time!

Friday, December 4, 2015

A youtube video from Veritasium that I commented on.

My Comment:
The most important thing to remember is that // You don't want to live forever in your human body! // The body is small, our nervous systems are limited, and of course you could just look at your teeth and wonder how horrible they will get with immortality. The galaxy measures time with planets and Suns: a human life is neither comparable in size to a planet or comparable in time to a planet. I strongly believe that an existence, given to us by the creators inside the Earth and the Milky Way, is far, far larger than what can be held inside a single human body. You might live inside the human body while your existence is outside running an organization, or planning things for you, or confronting people you think are your enemies. It's a sign of intelligence and soul-maturity to look beyond the body and imagine a life and existence without it, or in a world where biology is much more forgiving. Some people never figure out the truth. There are a couple solutions to aging: 1) Take advantage of the infinite bodies produced by the human species and move your soul and nervous system into a new body, preferably one that was of high genetic capability. I am certain that this has successfully been done thousands of times, all throughout the world. 2) Transcend to a higher life, embrace the great mysteries of souls and life, and leave the body behind. You might live in some sort of genie-like apparatus, or perhaps a pseudo-body dominated by a nervous system, or perhaps in a "hive" of other spirits and souls in a heaven or temple that contains heaven. I've thought a lot about this since I was 14 years old and decided I wanted to become an Immortal. I then went to the University of Washington for biology and it became my life purpose: to discover the soul, true life, and master the types of biology that will promote me and my soul. My website is here: tiberiasfury.wordpress.com and tiberiasfury.blogspot.com In these blogs, I explore the soul and try to make sense of the supernatural things that happen to me. Thanks for reading!!!


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2nd Comment:
I look at those people in the laboratories and I see their education and the words they use. It's obvious that they could teach a class about biology to college students. But there are 2 things that are very wrong and broken about the aging scientists in that video:

1) None of these scientists are so committed to immortality or to longevity to do anything to themselves or their bodies. That's completely stupid: to be in the organization that handles immortality and has the power to do it, but not to do anything to themselves with the longevity treatments available, or the more adventurous paths that could be done with religion and spirit.
2) There is a technology tree to the human body, and I would wager 500,000,000 dollars that the machines in the hospitals and carefully protected medical instrument storage places has the power to completely radicalize the human body, to make it somewhat immortal, and to engage in things closer to a cyborg existence. In addition, the machines can conquer every part of the human body, learn everything about every organ, and to improve these organs and then to destroy the parts of the body that are bad for it.

Don't be a afraid of this: it's just what happens when industry, technology, and medical services come together.
Again, my website is tiberiasfury.wordpress.com and tiberiasfury.blogspot.com Thanks for reading!

Friday, November 13, 2015

The God of Time vs Gene

I remember that a few years ago, I was known as the "God of Time," although I was a small God. My expertise of souls and time were very significant.

Now, while feeling around in my body with my soul, I was told by my soul that I'm not allowed to use Time, and I'm a gene. Gene is a very significant word to me: it means that I'm very good at achieving the goals my DNA set out for me. It's also definitely not a God.
My understanding of this is that I am going to die. I can feel inside of me, I can see my soul taking little cells of light out of my body and putting it in another container, and I believe that I am dying, but someday I am going to wake up in a new container.

This is different from normal death because I've been preparing for this for a long time.
I feel betrayed, and I feel certain that it is going to be very painful. My experience with torture has taught me that I am very vulnerable to pain and that there definitely is no God to defend me. In addition, my nervous system is inferior because it doesn't have an "off switch."

On the topic of God, I am most certain now that God is just soul-people like me, and that if I find 10 or more soul-people like me, I will have found a God that can lead me to immortality.

Steven James Debsin

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

I just started a Meetup group in Spokane!

I have a Craigslist Ad now asking for somebody to trade hard drives with, to swap our collections of music and movies. Nobody has replied for nearly 2 months.
So I created a Meetup group that does similar things: meetup to swap hard drives so we can copy our collections. And the big goal is to find somebody with server technology who can qualify all of our data and make a central collection, and then we could deliver that collection to all of our members.

I'm really excited, and I hope this turns out good. It could be really good for me, to find friends who have similar interests to me!

The group name is here:
http://www.meetup.com/Spokane-Hard-drive-swap-for-building-huge-media-collections/

That's it!

Monday, November 2, 2015

Playing Royal Revolt 2 again, this time another conspiracy occurred.

The last time I played Royal Revolt 2 on Windows 8.1, the game bugged and I couldn't play anymore. I asked for tech support and 4 months later I got a reply that didn't work: they wanted me to uninstall the game and lose my progress and start over. I think the game is great, but the company is trashy as hell.
When I upgraded to Windows 10, the game worked again.

Here is the conspiracy: my Royal Revolt 2 friend invite code.

"Start the game and get an EPIC reward by entering this friend code: UWLIGCSOL"

I find it very interesting because:
  1. I went to the University of Washington.
  2. I am researching the soul with all of my time (Sol is the name of the sun in Latin).
  3. I began researching the soul when I left the UW: it was what I did when I wanted to figure out how to heal myself and go back to university.
Now considering who I am, and what my destiny is in life: I can't think that this is a coincidence. I can only think that Microsoft is sending me a message. The only part of it that doesn't mean anything to me is LIG, but maybe that is my code-word.

If you read this blog, use the friend code UWLIGSOL and join me on Royal Revolt 2. I'm thinking about making my own alliance for soul-people only. I'm still working on a name for the alliance. My name is Traudna.
Some ideas: (I don't know the letter limit)
  • Few Time Souls
  • Souls of Joshua
  • Royal Soul
  • God inside me
That's it! 

Update:
I made an alliance:
--- Unique Souls of Time --
The words "Souls" and "Time" both mean something very significant. Time is by the most dangerous and powerful thing I've ever comprehended. I think of it as a machine world, where machines support and enslave life, similar to the Matrix but different too. I think people who live in TIME have far higher burdens upon them, and must face torture and great discomfort and treachery and pain before they're allowed inside a world of industry and power. It sounds like my future.  

Sunday, November 1, 2015

Galactic Civilizations 3 by Stardock was released on my birthday!

I am very impressed by this. I think Stardock is a supernatural company, and Galactic Civilizations III (3) is a very supernatural, galaxy-like game. I personally feel the galaxy is very soul-like, and it may be that our souls themselves are stars and not something ground on the Earth.

As for other Stardock games, I have a few but I'm complaining. I have Elemental, Fallen Enchantress, and Sins of a Solar Empire. I enjoyed Sins, but both Elemental and Fallen Enchantress are too difficult for me, and I was playing on rookie difficulty. On Fallen Enchantress, I actually used a memory-editing program to alter my money count and I produced a large army, only I found out that the computer had an even larger army. Perhaps his money was linked to my money, or perhaps Stardock is just an insane, evil company. The naming schemes of these games again makes me believe that Stardock is a very important, soul-like company.

I don't play video games anymore. I've recently realized that for most purposes, I am dead. But put another way, I am very much a soul-person right now. My spiritual powers have gone way up, and I feel very much like there are spirits or souls around me. I felt a couple days ago that perhaps I have a guardian angel, though she's never communicated with me. There is one thing that I am certain of: when I nap on my bed during the day, very often another personality is inside of me biting me, scratching me, and trying to eat my body. It's very painful and I become extremely angry when it happens. This sensation isn't fake, although it may be something that only soul-people can experience. It may be something that exists only in my soul, which is the most valuable part of my body.

I've been thinking a lot about William Gates, Jr lately. I've been thinking that he's really my enemy, and he stole all the money that my family could have made from Q-DOS and Seattle Computer Products. It's possible that our family could have been a billionaire family with the revolution of Q-DOS and the IBM deal. Thinking about this makes me believe that our family is very important, we are probably being watched, and that my existence is filled with destiny.

I feel that my life is much larger than my body for 2 different reasons: I am a light/soul and the true nature of the world is that we are like souls that are magnified thousands of times, and expressed on the human species and the Earth. Secondly, I think that the USA government and the computer industry are definitely aware of my family, and that there is hope. Thirdly, I feel that all of my research on souls, and my belief that there are very few of them, has definitely not gone unnoticed and help is probably coming. 

That's all I have to write about now.

Monday, September 14, 2015

I think I discovered something important today

I think I discovered something important today

-God or Gods are spirit, which is beneath organic life
-My soul in the world, my entitlement is spirit and it's hard to communicate with.
-Spirits are really important, but probably not as important as human life in physical bodies
-There are probably higher states of living than human bodies, perhaps involving much larger nervous systems and thinking powers than we have.
-It's not God that's important, it's Jesus Christ, who was a man and a human body.

-There may be places in the world that are my soul: that I'm born of, but I don't know what they look like or what they're called.
-In my human body that I've altered, my left hand is my spirit hand and my right hand is my primate hand.

Wednesday, September 9, 2015

The soul is completely real, but what about God?

I was thinking yesterday while watching a nature show about super-fast predators: all of the animals have the same general shape. They're all built the same way, with legs, a body, and a head. That's very weird, that all animals have the same shape. Real life must be very different from that: life from the soul's point of view. There must be bodies with 3 legs, bodies with super-large heads, and bodies without livers and kidneys.

I was looking at my email and I have a bunch of meetups from religious groups, most of which are agnostic or atheistic. I realized that my disbelief in a God has put me into weird groups: which deny the existence of a soul at all.

The truth is, my brain is functional, and as I learn I gain more experience of what is real and what is not real. And it is obvious that in a nation of 300+ million people, less than a million of them are truly important to the nation. And the vast majority of those have souls, which grant them power and abilities far in excess of the human body.
My religion isn't agnostic, it's just exclusive. I firmly believe that the vast majority of christians have no real basis for their religion: they've never actually met a man called God and agreed to follow his commandments and believe in him, in exchange for heaven or whatever else. In fact, I think they don't even approach prayer from an intelligent standpoint. It might just be that the christians worshipping God is just a way for them to discover the soul inside of themselves.

My belief is God is that he may be something non-human and non-personable: like a giant mass of dead wishes, or the souls of all people who are not alive. Or he may be a nature-force, like the laws of life or the laws of the Earth and the galaxy. He certainly is not, however, a very successful human who sits at the top of all souls and secures the heaven for all people. So far as I know, there is no single human who is so successful that all souls worship him.

The truth is, I desperately need to find something that is God, or some other person who knows everything about the soul. It's pretty much the only thing I believe in now, and my only future path.
In the past 6 years I've been researching the soul. In the past 3 years, I've been desperately searching for somebody similar to me, who wants to discover the soul but not follow an immature peasant religion.

Sunday, September 6, 2015

Over the night

Yesterday I had been doing a lot of soul-searching, and it finally had an effect.
I woke up around 2AM and I had a major realization: that every single part of my body has an effect of idiocy placed on it. It's almost like I don't have a soul at all. Every part of my brain is dampened, and the things I'm thinking about are reduced in intelligence and scope. In addition, my ability to work a job and my energy has been greatly reduced. It truly seems like something of major importance has happened to me, and my entire soul is balanced on a point of idiocy: that is the highest thing that I can accomplish.
During this time, I was focusing on a fence and the individual fence boards and I realized that if I tried to will my mind to become a fence, I could fill in the gaps between them with some sort of gooey liquid. This felt good inside my brain.

After I fell asleep again, I woke up with an amazing and vivid dream. I dreamt that I had met Bill Gates and he was a wonderful and democratic person. He told me that he had bought me off of ebay, and he said that he was going to buy all of me and make my life right again. When I woke up, I wondered if perhaps the dream were real and if it was a special dream that doesn't come around very often. It certainly was an enjoyable dream.

So I must conclude that there is a soul-like or major malady on me, and the result is reduced intelligence and idiocy. I feel like even if I do major thinking, I won't find the answer to what I'm searching for and I won't be able to think correctly.

Saturday, September 5, 2015

I think I've discovered something really important about religion

I just got done watching "Killing Jesus" on Fox News. I caught about half of it.

Religion is about death, but not about the afterlife. It might be that DNA is the most important thing, and there simply is no afterlife. But the DNA must keep going, kind of like in that anime Juoussei.

I think that religion is about taking dead people: for example, the white matter in the brain, and the life particles in the body, and distributing them to people inside a temple. The idea is that the white matter is the basis of intelligence, and by taking it into your body, you will become more intelligent in life.
The idea of a temple or church being used to distribute mana or spirit is something I'm very fixated on. It seems that if a church or temple were real, and the members of that temple were valued, then the distribution of mana and spirit would be something that has to be going on.
I simply can't get this out of my mind, and I won't forget it. Temples distribute mana and spirit, and much of that comes from dead people. In addition, there are specialty diets and supplements that can be designed to increase the creation of white matter in the brain and nervous system health.

Now does the christian church distribute mana and spirit? I don't think so. Partly that must be because they aren't so serious anymore. They just don't value their churchgoers that much. Part of it may be that the christian religion
It might also be that the christian church does distribute spirit, but they do it with their candles or they do it invisibly.

While it might be true that life is just an infinite repetition of DNA continuation, but I know that my body and soul isn't bound to that. I know that I have things inside of me that are superbiological, and are higher than DNA.
Today I've made a lot of progress in "The Talos Principle" and this has contributed towards my thinking about religion. 
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IS there tyranny in the world? And what happens as a result of tyranny? In America, there is tyranny regarding taxes and economics. It seems like everyone wants to make money, and everyone wants to live and make children. But the tyranny isn't used to accomplish a theocratic goal, nor is it used to increase our technology and open up new frontiers.
What the human species does, and what tyranny is used for proves the focus of God. In America, I think the purpose of God is biology and the continuation of DNA.

The soul and movement

This is a hypothesis I just came up with.
If the universe is expanding, then it could be said that the universe is moving. And if the universe is moving, then it could be said that souls are real. Movement is a concept that is firmly fixed on souls, and gives them the energy to exist and the observation to exist.
The details of souls and galaxies are extremely hard for me to explain, because of the major distances between them. But I've always believed that stars and galaxies, who are most easily represented by light, have something to do with souls.

Today, I was thinking about the soul like it were a companion, but that it left the body often. I was wondering if my soul has ever left the body and ever been stranded, unsure how to get back to the body. For example, I got in the car and drove away, but my soul wasn't with me.
Despite this, I think that the soul must be inside the nervous system. However, I can't say that there is a major difference between myself as a 28 year old and myself as a 7 year old. It's true that I have more nerves and far more white matter in my body, but it's also true that there is something inside of me which has existed almost entirely unchanged.

Today I was thinking that a mother provides a child with a body, and a father provides a child with a soul. That isn't proven at all.

Friday, September 4, 2015

Proof of soul again

I was reading a website that was talking about the smell of old books. It said that books are held together by something which is similar to vanillin, and that as it breaks down, it makes the old book smell.
After I read this, I smelled the odor of old books. And then I realized, this is another proof of souls. My soul, which appears to be in the back of my consciousness, was reading this page as I was, and gave me the smell of old books after reading it as a common curtesy.

I had an idea today that, separate from my previous assumptions: every person has some sort of soul: and my soul is 8 times bigger than theirs. But I don't really believe this is true because I think that every soul has an inheritance on the Earth and in the galaxy, and that the ordinary common people do not have any inheritance. Or maybe their inheritance is just 1/8 as big as mine.
This is just an idea.

Thursday, September 3, 2015

The soul is inside the nervous system

A lot of the ideas that go through my head, I have to ask myself if it is true or if it is factual.
But this idea, that the soul is inside of the nervous system, I think is very concrete. It's static and foundational and I thunk I can talk about this idea with other people without any doubt or shame. It may be true that the soul is in the nervous system, and the way to make it most happy is to give it sugar like in my powerade drinks. That seems to energy me.

Many of the ideas that I've had are sensational and very impressive, but are kind of "out there." It's unclear to me if the ideas are true on Earth, or only in the soul world that I can feel and am invested in.

One of the ideas that I have that is "out there" is that the soul is inside of the body, and it has a biological nature, and it can eat and grow larger. This is one of the most important concepts to me: that through spiritual work and perhaps eating, my soul can grow larger and become more intelligent.

I've been reading the Bleach manga for many years. It seems almost like it's giving out the secret of life to all people, and that's ok because we're really late in the civilization of man and because Bleach is a millenium manga: it came out right after the millenium.

The latest villian in Bleach is both a nervous system user, and a hand. He uses his nerves to attack people, and his full body is the left hand of the soul king. I find this far too certain and factual to let go of. I know for certain that hands are very central to true religion, and that the nervous system is also very central to true religion.
And of course, the primary Quincy is a soul copier: he says his power is to "give and share his soul" and to take it back after it's lived in other people for a while. This seems like a dead give-away of religious truth. Meanwhile, the shinigami receive their powers by being given shinigami power from another shinigami. The difference between a Quincy and a shinigami seems to be that the Quincy's are singular and the shinigami are more communal.

Sunday, August 30, 2015

Letter to college choice organizations

Hello, I'm looking for a very specific type of college.
I'm a biologist and my research has been about what makes a human being unique: the soul. My research has led me to believe that there are less than 200,000 soul-people in the entire USA, and that a lot of people know a lot about them. They might even be the most famous people in the USA.
If a human being is an animal and can live without a soul, then the type of people I'm interested in are those who have a soul and have a creator, and live as a human being but with very different interests.
I'm looking for a university or college in the USA or international that specifically caters to this type of person:
-The few people in the USA who have a soul and a creator
-The top 200,000 souls in the USA
By soul: I mean the supernatural existence that mostly lives inside of the brain or the nervous system, and is the person inside of a body that the creator cares about. It's what separates animals and the highest quality of human being: the soul.
I feel very much that I have a soul and I'm among the top 200,000 in America. It's kind of like having a camera inside of you, or maybe like a little man inside of your head. I feel very human though, and my whole life I've tried to make myself more unique than other people I've met.
So can you help me find a specific college that is set up just for soul people? I would be very, very grateful if you could do so. If not, are there any organizations in the USA or world that specifically cater to souls and soul-people?
Thanks so much,
Steven ***** ******

I saw my soul today

I had just gotten into the shower.
I saw briefly for about 1 second a very dark dot out of my left eye. I have reason to believe that it was something I was seeing from inside my inner eye, not actually in front of my left eye.
The dot was black and very deep, and it was like a forbidden object. I sensed that this dot was actually the source of my mind inside of my head, and that it was something out of reach but was doing a lot of work. It was actually very scary, but I sensed it wouldn't hurt me. It seemed like it was very angry and very unpleased with my life over the past few months.

In the past week or so, I was reminded of my soul-experiments in the past. There was one major experiment that I had done, inside my visions, to see the true reality of the soul.
  1. The soul is inside a golden ball inside of our body. And the soul is completely controlled by "orders" and "rules" that are all over the ball, that the soul is being forced to read every millisecond. The soul reads the orders and makes memories, and cannot violate the orders. Removing restrictive orders and adding positive orders will make the soul more powerful, but will be less as intended by our creator. 
  2. The soul is like a little black man, at most about 2 cm tall and completely dense and solid out of soul particles. He lives inside of a room, similar to the golden ball, but more like a structure. In the room, he runs a particle gun that moves black dots into different lines. This is part of the structure of soul movement and thinking. There may be up to 4 different lines and the black man uses the gun to switch between different lines very quickly. He may be capable of switching lines in a millisecond or less. The entire room is golden and the man is dense black.
These two soul experiments are very highly valued to me, and when I was discovering them, I was completely serious and invested in them. It was using all of my concentration to discover these, and I did so with the full intent of my soul. In my experiments, I succeeded in changing the orders inside of my golden ball, and I also changed the man inside of the dot lines room.
Over the past week, I had been trying to go back into my golden ball, and discover the orders that are limiting me now. I think that my soul has so much power that it is capable of, and it is being limited from that by some unknown factor. I think I'm being limited by the constraints and limits of my creator, who designed my soul and put the original orders in it.

I have to say that I think both of these rooms are completely real, but nothing changed for me on Earth after discovering them and changing the orders inside of them. It may be that these are completely real, but exist on a different plane or different reality. I will never forget them though, or how much invested I am in them after discovering them. Again, they were high-resolution and I was exceedingly careful the changes that I made in them to only profit and support myself.

Saturday, August 29, 2015

Zombies and my religion about souls

I've realized several times now that the trend in Zombies in fiction is actually very interesting to me. 
My religion about souls is about how few souls there are, and what a human being is if he doesn't have a soul, but he lives an entire lifetime and makes children.
The idea of zombie apocalypse: that all people become zombies except a few survivors, is relatively similar. It says that the vast amount of people do not have souls, ie they can become zombies, and only a few survivors exist - those with souls.

I wonder if there is a zombie-movie forum or someplace on the World Wide Web that I can find people with similar views to me, who also believe that survivors are soul people. 
I also wonder if the Hollywood Studios which make these movies are aware of everything, and the zombie fiction movement is friendly to me. Who else is aware of everything - the truth? How many zombie fiction fans are aware of the truth, in excess of what I have hypothesized? How many zombie moviemakers are aware of the total truth, of souls and human beings and most importantly: what I am?
In addition, I am thinking that the entire soul does not reside in a body, but instead has many qualities and quantities, and may even be part of the Earth or part of human society.

Friday, August 28, 2015

I really need some help

I am facing major depression and thoughts of suicide.
I am facing poverty and an inability to take care of myself. Sometimes I can't even renew my Social Security paperwork.
I am facing homelessness and all of the risks that go along with that.
Just today, I got a parking ticket notice that my car could be towed away if it wasn't moved within 3 days. That was very stressful.

Even though I sometimes have whole months of peacefulness with nothing bad happening, I still am uncharged. My joy and my happiness and my satisfaction are at all time lows, and my stress is very high.

I think if I had a girlfriend, my life would be much better.
I think the fact that I don't have a girlfriend must be a conspiracy, and the pressure is getting worse and worse. It's almost like somebody is running up my stress and frustration while reducing my happiness and financial security. It's like a game of poverty and suicide, and I'm taking it really roughly.

The worst part is, I don't even know how to commit suicide. Maybe that's evidence that I don't really want to do it. I don't have the willpower to do drastic methods like cutting my veins or shooting myself. I just can't will myself to do that.

If only I had my dreams that I used to have: I could find joy and happiness in life and have some hope for the future. More than anything, I wish for financial security and to have my old dreams come back to me, or even better: to have a supernatural soul for real.

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

I got caught on google maps car today. Not yet uploaded to server.

In the alleyway between 2nd and 3rd avenue, on NW 107th St. I wonder how long it will be before I'm on the google maps? It was today around 2:50pm.

https://www.google.com/maps/@47.7069217,-122.3600979,3a,75y,190.5h,67.22t/data=!3m6!1e1!3m4!1s_HMcosiXG-x0PI8WgImOHA!2e0!7i13312!8i6656

I need to articulate my soul malady and find somebody who knows what it is.

The fights inside of me that occur whenever I lay down, and almost every night when I go to bed.

I think it might be possession, but it's more of a personality inside of me. We fight all the time over morality, like christian concepts of heaven and hell. I feel like my supernatural soul has been loosened inside of me and one of my arms or wings of my soul has been jammed into something, and it's painful. It's like somebody is grabbing my arms and trying to pull me in a different direction than the one I was going in.
  • This is mostly true and accurate.
  • The other personality inside of me, it has two different appearances: one is a man who is like a demon, and one is a woman who is pretending to be a man. Both of them are demonic and very grunty and physically exerted.
  • I fight with the "ropes inside of me," or "the arms inside of me" to go right all the time, while the other personality wants to go left. To me, right means masculine, left means feminine, up means success, and down means poverty and no success.
  • Every time I fight, I feel like we're actually fighting over my immortal soul, and if I go to heaven or hell, I take it very seriously and these fights must be expending quite a lot of energy inside of me.
  • The demon or other personality is intwined with both my body systems, and deeply inside of my brain. It's really deep inside of me, and just talking about it has consequences for me and my memory and my personality. It's almost like the demon is literally at the seat of my soul, or next to it, and is aware of everything that I do that is important.
  • I only win the fights around 70% of the time, and sometimes I win the fights by having other arms captured inside of me, which is worse in the long run.
  • Sometimes it feels like the other personality is near death, or is actually undead, and that if he/she loses they will die permanently. But despite this, the other personality hasn't stopped for a long time, even though he/she has lost many times.
  • Sometimes I feel like this soul problem is about my body systems being misaligned and unused. For example, my blood sugar is low and my body doesn't get much use, and that's why I'm being tormented by this spirit or personality inside of me. It sometimes makes me want to do things, like exercise or use my body.
Who might be able to assist me:
-A qualified exorcist.
-Somebody who has my trust and can sense other personalities or demons
-Somebody who knows a lot about the supernatural soul and can sense them.
-A priest of a true religion, or an inner priest of the catholic church.
-Somebody who believes me that I'm one of 200,000 souls in the world.

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A new idea:
If I spend all day thinking, and trying to make my soul work correctly: what could be inside of me? 
Could it be that I've been making power for myself, and the whole time my not working has created a super-powerful repressed spirit? Maybe I'm developing new abilities, or things outside of my body are going in extreme directions?
I can't help but think that SOMETHING must be increasing, with how long I spend alone every day on my computer and thinking. Something supernatural is probably coming, sooner rather than later.

Friday, August 21, 2015

A disturbing trend on my computer

In addition to not being interested in videogames, being incapable of schoolwork or homework, and not being capable of building or repairing computers anymore, there is something just as bad:
When I download files onto my computer, I don't have enough willpower to label them and sort them on my computer. This has been going on for about 4 years now.
Nearly all files are separated into about 8 categories and then put into folders labed "To Sort" and I don't actually sort them for years at a time.
When I was younger, my computer was very organized, and I would spend hours organizing my music collection and all the files on my computer. Now, nearly everything is in general folders and in "To Sort" Folders. What am I going to do about this? All the things I valued about myself have degenerated and are in the toilet.

My life is important, and I'm probably being watched

I realized today that my life not only intersected the beginning of the internet and the rise of the Personal Computer, but it also intersected the year 2000. These two things are very important and probably means that my life is very important, and my life on this planet was planned by my creator, to coincide with these two things.
Not to mention the impact my grandfather had on the computer industry, which makes me extra-special and extra-valuable.
Now how to capitalize on this and be productive to the limit?

Proof that there is life after death, and proof that my soul is in control of thousands or more people

I feel 85% certain of this. Double sine.

The world is kind of like a tribal system, that developed chiefs and shamans and then grew up and developed new things. Early in the history of our civilization is when the issues of life and death were resolved, and the world could not continue onto bigger things until these were resolved.

As cities and counties grew, the issues of life and death were less important and the world grew with certainty that people who died went somewhere good, and their power of existence was consolidated.

Now that we are a nation that is in control of a continent, we are so far above the issues of life and death that we have systems and ideas far above that of life and death. It might even be that the issues of life and death were entirely decided in the days of Zeus and Jupiter. The fact that the planets were named after Roman Gods, and I feel that I am related to them by soul, is evidence that our people are not in any way marginalized and we will inherit the Earth.
With the advent of NATO and the United Nations, it could be said that the world is running so well, and the life and death of our people is going so well, that supremely large concepts and organizations are existing in the world. The flight network, and the trade network all across the world are proof that the World society is going great and life is supreme.

I feel strongly certain that my soul is destined and protected by the world, and that I am completely important. My soul must be in possession of millions of human bodies, and thousands of high-performing people in the world society. Someday, I will reconcile these people and make myself an Empire of all the things which glorify me.

It might be true that the most important things for my life are 1) nutrition 2) protection of my body and brain 3) to live where nobody who wants to hurt me knows where I live and 4) to make sure my body is entrusted to like-minded people when I die, to preserve my white matter and all the product that I've made in my nervous system and brain.

Again, I feel completely certain that our civilization could not exist, or have advanced so far unless the issues of life, death, heaven, and personal soul empire were already all advanced and working well. 

I am 85% certain of this. Signed, Minenstutushia-nin. Secrecy and certainty.

Thursday, August 20, 2015

Proof that I have a soul, and ideas about Microsoft App Store game SOULCRAFT

I was having a vision inside my head, that I was in a conflict with a person. And then I started speaking in a foreign language. I thought the language was a combination of Latin and German. As soon as I heard this, about 35 words that are 0% English and I've never studied before, I decided that there was something mysterious and soul-like inside of me, that proves that I'm unique and I have a soul that the common people of Earth do not. The words were very violent, like a genius from the USA who went to Germany and learned a private language and spoke those words in my vision. The vision was also about rich people, and my language was about me being superior to rich people with my language and my education. I was optimistic when I realized this, and that it's still inside of me!

Today, I was thinking that a person like me, who might be considered an entire existence inside one single body, with a camera-like soul peering out from my eyes: it's impossible for my life to be unimportant. If I live my life alone and poor, then there must be serious consequences for other parts of the world, in the grand scheme of things. I've heard that in the USA, the life is all like a big party. The fact that I'm not having any party at all means that there must be consequences somehow, and the other parts of my existence are punishing people or making trouble.
Now as for all of the people I have contacted and not discovered the truth: I can only think that there must be a law or a great ordered conspiracy to deprive my people of the right to see the real world.

Now onto SOULCRAFT, a game in the Windows 8.1 app store:
The character you play is an angel, and the game gradually tells you small things about souls.
I've decided that the game company is probably telling the truth about souls, in some small details, and the difficulty of the comprehension of the soul truth is angel quality. We're angels because all the truth is being covered up, and we can only find the truth after a long time discovering it and trial and error, and in the end we may only find the truth inside and never know all of the truth.

The nervous system and souls

I think the soul may be directly interacting with the human nervous system.
Otherwise, all bodies central is interacting with the nervous system, and those of us with privileged souls are interacting with it after interacting with the core of the human body.

I've been wondering for a while now, if feeling pain is actually good. It seems that is what the nerves do best, is send feelings of pain into me and test my limits, of what I can feel and what happens when I feel pain.
Every time I feel pain, I feel like I'm losing something. Similar to losing money or possessions, or similar to losing parts of your body from tissue destruction. To me, pain is the sign that I'm losing something precious to me: that is why the pain is unendurable. This seems to be contradictory to what I wrote before, about pain being good. 
However, the full workings of the nervous system and the soul require a lot more analysis and research, in addition to my experiences in my body, with a partially awoken soul.