Saturday, March 26, 2016

I had dinner with my family...

and it was good. I became more moderate and social able, and my mind become less cloudy and more sane.

However, on the way back home, I cam to a startling conclusion.
Spokane, Washington is not a good city. In fact, it's a really dead city, filled with idiots, crazy people, and low incomes. The fact that I live here means that I'm not alive. No opportunity will come to me by being in this city, except those which may come from my mailings.

And here is my realization:
I am sustained by death.
The past 10 years have been really, really horrible for me and I have been close to death many, many times. I think I've found a method to finally do me in, but I wonder if it will damage my soul permanently and if I have the right opportunity to pull it off.

My life is so horrible, that everything I do is shaded by death, lack of opportunities, and lack of friendship and love. I may even be death itself, to a certain people. Who knows what my soul could be doing during all this time. But I do know that my soul doesn't know the truth, and it's not quite an adult.

The things that I think about everyday are terrifying and epic. But considering how close I am to death, I'm always making plans and trying to strengthen my mental muscles so I can escape my situation. I'm trying to become smart enough to make money playing stocks and betting on odds. This may happen, you never know. I could become a genie, or my soul could finally unlock and increase my intelligence enough to make the common man world look like a joke.

So I am sustained by death. All of my life is colored by my close proximity to it. I am deathly myself.
Gabriel, a traitor, a liar, and a treacherous pleb, doesn't care enough or isn't strong enough to save my life and give me a new opportunity, or a whole new life.

Thursday, March 24, 2016

I'm on google maps!

This happened many months ago, when I was out for a walk.
A google maps car drove past me while I was walking, and I turned around to get my picture taken. It has taken several months for me to be included in google maps, but finally now I am.

I think it's cool.
Me on google maps, March 24th 2016

Sunday, March 6, 2016

Ayahuasca and Amazon Yellow Powdered Caapi Vine - Banisteriopsis Caapi

I was researching Ayahuasca and I was seriously considering buying some of it for $300, but the bitcoin transaction fell through. The total was $307 and I was only allowed to send $300. Damn it.

So the next thing I did was search Amazon for components of Ayahuasca, and I found this stuff called Yellow Powdered Caapi Vine, which is one of the main ingredients in Ayahuasca.

What is Ayahuasca: it's like a tea or beverage that a person takes to get soul-like experiences, such as soul-dreams. In South America, there are all sorts of retreats that a person can take to experience it. For me, it was a matter of buying the product and shipping it to USA. The $307 package claimed to be enough for 10 soul-dream experiences.

So I bought this Yellow Powered Caapi Vine, and I've been drinking it in my tea. I put enough in there that the tea is saturated and the powder forms at the bottom of the cup. I feel relaxed and slightly more soul-like, but the taste detracts from the experience. I had no special dreams because of it, however I did feel a special part of my brain becoming active, which was important.

The worst part is: Now that I bought my single 1 bag of Powdered Caapi Vine for like $12, Amazon isn't selling it anymore. The weird part is that the page has been removed and an error takes place when trying to view it, instead of a page saying it has been removed. I'm very disappointed with Amazon. There doesn't appear to be any other product related to Ayahuasca on Amazon.

I have to wonder if I use somebody else's computer and Amazon account, if the product would still be available.